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Saturday, 26 September 2009

  • FEELING HOUNDED

    Ever had a day where it felt like the devil is hounding you? You know, trying to play on all your doubts and fears... thinking perhaps you have misunderstood someone, or someone has misunderstood or misjudged you when you had all good intentions. Trying to cause strife and dissention.
     
    I had to come against the devil and his principalities and powers more than once yesterday. So I started thinking, "Okay why am I feeling so hounded?" .... truth is, often when there's good things happening, and more good things to come, the enemy gets nervous. He certainly doesn't like it, and will start throwing the "book" at you. So I decided I'm taking it as a good sign! Cause there are changes and good things happening. "So devil, it's true you're stronger than I am in my own humanness, BUT I have One greater than you in me! You're already defeated!" PTL

Monday, 21 September 2009

  • GIRLS MPACT CAMPOUT

    Ahh yes, the annual Mpact Girls campout. Sometimes as we're getting ready for it I wonder, "is it worth it?" It's a lot of work, a lot of time and effort... a loss of sleep... a loss of "comfort" things for a couple days, but in the end it's always worth it.
     
    My favorite thing, actually there are two favorites... the services, awesome messages and singing & praise time. It's geared towards girls grades 2nd.. well through High School, but the majority of girls are through ages 7-14, and I always get blessed as well. And then there's just the spending time with the girls. We all get to know each other in ways that would not be possible just spending an hour with them on Wednesday evening or Sunday mornings.
     
    My least favorite parts... cooking. I don't enjoy cooking even in my own home. I know... it's almost heathenish from the background I come from. For every good Amish/Mennonite young girl learns all the housewifely essentials from an early age... gardening, canning, sewing, cleaning, and on top of that list is cooking and baking.
     
    I'm a bit like my oldest sister... as I observed her throwing a bit of this, and a little of that in her cooking, I asked her if she enjoyed cooking. Miriam paused a bit. "No, I don't particularly enjoy cooking, but I like good food."
     
    It made me laugh, as I could identify. I rarely derive pleasure from cooking.
     
    This is multiplied when you're camping. It wouldn't be so bad if it was just for our group, but each camp has two or three guests join them for every meal. The Minute Men and the speaker, singers, activity director and helpers, all need a place to eat. And I've heard how whispers travel through the Minute Men camp when a certain camp doesn't have so good food, or runs out of food. Heaven forbid we become one of those camps! So that can be a tad stressful for me.
     
    Then of course with this many girls together for that two days, you're bound to have some squabbles and such. The big issues are generally, who gets to sleep and sit with whom. Sometimes the sponsors have to step in and just say this is the way it's gon'a be. Fortunately the tears and poutings have never lasted too long with our girls. And it is rewarding to see them mature and realize the world doesn't revolve around just their own wants.You see some girls step up to become the peacemaker, or the girl that apologizes without being told.
     
    Seriously, there's way more sharing, caring, and squeals & shrieks of laughter than tears & pouting.
     
    The Mpact theme this year was "A Star in the Making".... taking about the girls gifts and talents. We even had a talent show one evening which was very entertaining! And as always, the alters fill up with girls dedicating or rededicating their life to the Lord. Their hearts are so tender at that age and you barely have to open the alters till the girls come streaming forward.
     
    So yeah, it's all worth it.

Friday, 11 September 2009

  • WHERE WERE YOU SEPTEMBER 11, 2001

    September 11... a date my generation probably won't forget.. at least if you add the 2001 to the end.
     
    I remember that date well. I was quite caught up in my own little world at the time, I'll totally admit it. It was a time of turmoil for me. Little over a year that mom had passed away, and 7 months after dad's death. Lee and I were still living in the new house, and at that point there was still debate if Rays were gon'a buy the house, or if we were gon'a put it on the market to sell. Either way, it would mean a move for me, but to where?... and how?.. it was all a mystery to me. And very overwhelming.
     
    Lee and I had just gotten through our first fruit season on our own... I was still "distressing" from that.
     
     My cousin Marilyn (Yutzy side) was getting married in Indiana on the 13th, I was to be server at her wedding. My cousin Nita (Miller side) kindly volunteered to go with me so I wouldn't have to travel by myself. To this day I don't know if she knows how much that meant to me. Thank you Nita, you are a dear!
     
    The rest of my family was coming home that week, we were gon'a go through and separate all the stuff. I had already gone through bunch of stuff to separate out what was Lee and mine, but there was ever so much more to do.
     
    Tuesday morning, I didn't have to be at work till 9:00 a.m., but I was up early doing laundry, starting to pack, stripping beds as the first ones of the family were due to arrive that evening. Even now my mind is fuzzy on some of those details.
     
    It was a beautiful day, blue sunshiny skies. A hint of fall in the air. I drove to work, my radio was on low, I couldn't hear it, and my mind was so busy making lists, I didn't even think to turn it up. As I neared town and slowed down, I began to hear bits and pieces. Something about the WTC towers burning. Caught my attention, I turned it up. It would've been almost 10:00 a.m. in New York, a full hour after the first plane had hit, but details were still sketchy.
     
    I arrived at this elderly couple's home. They quickly waved me in, gave me a cup of coffee and told me to sit and watch the news a bit. I'll never forget those first images. The buildings on fire, the people in panic. There'd be like three different images on the screen plus a word crawl thing at the bottom as the news people scrambled to keep up. There was no commercials. There was reports of more "possible" hijacked planes. By the time the third one hit the Pentagon, there was no doubt we were under attack. But from whom? And why? I also saw it live when the towers came crumbling down. It was like I was watching a movie for this couldn't be happening for real. Yet it was so undeniably real. Billowing clouds of smoke and dust swallowing up people running for their lives.  Lets just say it took me a lot longer to clean that house that day. Thankfully I only had a half days work.
     
    I never thought of being scared for my own life. I was in an obscure little town in the upper Midwest. I felt totally safe. Even though I did hear they shut down Mall of America as well as some other high rise buildings in the Cities. But this was happening way on the east coast, how could it possibly affect me on a personal level?
     
    I had dozens of errands to run that day, I kept my radio turned up. For the first time in my life, every radio station was an all news station with no commercials. Couldn't have listened to music from the radio had I wanted to. That was the first day I recall hearing the name Osama Bin Ladin, and Al-Qaeda, Taliban. All completely foreign names to me.
     
    I went to St Cloud to pick up a rental car as my Jimmy was not reliable for the journey to IN. First I stopped by the mall for a few items. The Crossroads mall in St Cloud was shut down. I was perturbed! Who on earth would want to attack there??!! I still think it had more to do with people being upset and scared and having their eyes glued to the TV and just wanting to go home, more then safety reasons. Hmmm, already this thing in New York was affecting my life.
     
    I got to the rental car place as a lady ahead of me was renting a car explaining she was supposed to fly out of the cities, and of course all flights were cancelled indefinably. Found out rental cars were going fast, and it was a good thing I'd reserved mine. The lady behind the counter was practically in tears as her boyfriend was called up from the National Guard Reserve... there were no details, but we could all add two and two and figure out a war was imminent. That was also the first I heard there might be a gas shortage and price spikes.
     
    Now I was even more distracted, but I got home and kept packing and cleaning. I believe Mark and Miriam and maybe Martha came that evening yet. Like I said, details are still sketchy in my mind. They all knew I was gon'a be gone for three days. I recall being up late that night getting last minute things done, when my brother Ray calls.
     
    "Are you still planning on going to IN?" he asked.
     
    "Yes, why?" I enquired.
     
    Turns out he had just got back from filling his truck with gas, and he said there was a line there you wouldn't believe with people bringing jugs and containers to fill, and there was talk of gas going up to $4 or $5 a gallon. Which at that time was mind-blowing!
     
    I tossed and turned a while that night. I met Nita early the next morning, and we sat in my rental car for some time as I debated. I couldn't afford $5 a gallon fuel! Again, this thing that happened in New York was affecting me. 
     
    Finally I told Nita we'll take off once, we'll keep a look out, if prices get to high, we'll just have to turn around and come back. As I recall, the prices had gone up some already. Wish I remembered what it was, cause I'm sure it would seem cheap now.
     
    We listened to hours of radio talk, stories of survivors and eye witnesses were fascinating. Of course everyone was still trying to figure out the whys and hows of it all... as well as all kinds of rumors and predictions. At one point we had to just turn it off and put some of our music on as a brain can get an overload.
     
    There was still a good turn out at the wedding. I was glad I was able to be there.
     
    I remember on the way home, there was an appointed time when President Bush was gon'a give his first speech since 9-11.  I think there had been a brief phone call message before to assure the American people he was alive and well. But as the President started his speech, we witnessed some people that had pulled alongside the Freeway, holding a big American Flag standing at attention with their hands over their heart. People were honking their horns. Still further ahead more people were doing the same thing on and overpass, with the flag hanging over the bridge. Every sign everywhere was flashing God Bless America, or something to that effect. Even speeding along the freeway, you could feel the overwhelming patriotism everywhere. It made my heart swell and almost brought tears to my eyes. To me, the unified patriotism was the one good thing that came out of that tragedy. Sadly it didn't last nearly long enough.
     
    Oh, and the highest gas prices we saw was $3 a gallon.. and I never even paid $2 a gallon. And we never got rationed either, another fear that had been circulating.
     
    Yeah, the events of that day did end up effecting my life somewhat, both short term and long term. Gas prices did keep on rising from that point on. Airport security was forever changed. The war on terrorism, that is still ongoing as I'm typing this. And we are currently in a time of recession, but the American people are a hardy & hale lot. We may complain a lot and sound like we turn on each other at times, but as Bin Laden found out, when the enemy attacks, we band together.
     
    May God grant wisdom to those in Authority and God bless America.
     
     
     

Monday, 07 September 2009

  • A HUMBLING EXPERIENCE

    So... for two years I've wanted to bike the Lake Wobegone bike trail. It's where an old railroad track was, now nicely paved and of course no hills. A good portion even lies between nicely shaded trees and such. This portion of the trail is 46 miles long, but it hooks up with other trails... my understanding is you could go 130 miles or more.
     
    It was Labor Day, the guys are "laboring". This has to be done since we took a week off to go to MT, plus the want to take time off to go on their elk hunt in CO. But I had the day off, the weather was nice. I bought a brand new 7 speed bike (first time ever for brand new!) and told my family I'm biking from Sauk Centre to Osakis ( around 13 miles one way)... whoever wants to come, come. It ended up being Lara, her five children, ages 6-16, and their foreign exchange student, Donna, also 16 I believe. We loaded the bikes up, Lara & I parked her truck in West Union, only little over 7 miles, cause we were concerned the younger once, Amber & Travis, wouldn't make it that far. Turns out they were not the ones we should've been concerned about.
     
    We were taking it slow and easy so Amber fast little pumping legs could keep up. She did awesome. Travis was usually always ahead trying to keep up with the "big" girls. We came to this bridge and took a break. Some snacks and water. I said I wanted to take off first, get ahead then take a picture of them as they were biking towards me.
     
    Got my camera out, was holding it in my right hand, looked back to see how far I'd gone, just like that I was off the trail and losing control fast. I grabbed the brake with my left hand. In all my years I never took the time to realize the right hand operates the back brake and left hand is front brake. Let me tell you folks. My brakes on my new bike work great! Those brakes gabbed my front wheel so fast that my rear tire literally lifted right up in the air. I went flying over the handlebars!! I couldn't see it, but I know it had to be the most undignified dismount you ever saw in you life! I put my arms and hand out as I heard my bike clattering to the pavement. It looked like a train wreck. My bike looked twisted up. I was spread quite thinly over the pavement. My little pouch/carrier on my bike had opened up. My camera, my phone, my sunglass, my water bottle... all scattered from hither to yon. As Lara biked up, I was scrambling to my feet with a gasp, "my bike!" .... that was my first concern. My bike was just fine... and turns out cameras & cell phones are also made of pretty sturdy stuff. And me? I left some skin on the pavement from my right arm and my left hand. I may find a few more black and blue areas in my shower tonight or by tomorrow morning.
     
    Goodness! I'd not taken a spill like that since I was 9 years old! What's that verse... Pride goes before a fall?!
     
    After a nice lunch in Osakis, and some time spent down by the lake & park area, Alex & I decided we could bike back to Sauk. The rest loaded up their bikes and headed for home. What Alex & I had not factored in was the WIND!! On the way over there was just a nice little side breeze. My weatherbug says in this area wind gusts were from the south at 24mph. I declare over there the gusts were up to 35mph at least! There were times we had to just put our heads down and lean into it. My, did we get our cardio workout.
     
    Despite all that, I want to go again. This time I think I'll head a different direction, and want to do it when the leaves are turning. I'm told it's gorgeous on that trail southeast from here.
     
    Lessons learned for next time... don't go biking 26 miles in one day (half of that into the wind) when you haven't rode bike in two years. Don't try any fancy moves like looking over your shoulder with a camera in hand. Wear sunscreen on your face. Oh, and Hydrogen Peroxide stings & burns just as bad as it did when I was a kid.
     
    PS I tried uploading some photos.. it was taking forever and a day, so I canceled it. Fault of my slow compuper, not my camera that took a spill.
     
     
     

Tuesday, 18 August 2009

  • THE THREE D.'S

    August is "that" month for me. Everything comes crashing down at once. I always thought it was just cause of the fruit season...  having a semi load of Peaches & Blueberries come in will do that to one. But it's not just that, nor is it just me. I have folks rushing down to pick up their ordered fruit saying they have to go take care of their 20 dozen picked sweet corn, or rushing in last minute with stained hands from the bushels of apples they were working up. Some wonder what in the world they were thinking back in June when they ordered this fruit! Anyone who has a vegetable garden or a crop farmer knows August is the month you're going from dawn to dusk.
     
    Even those who don't have vegetable gardens or are crop farmers find themselves scrambling in the month of August. Inevitability someone can't come pick up their fruit for they have something or other to register at a Fair somewhere. Or they're taking their kids to college. Or school shopping. The lucky ones are on vacation. I believe a lot of it has to do with simply realizing the endless days of summer are drawing to an end. Here in MN where the summer season can be short, we're often simply just dragging our feet. Procrastination will cause one to have to scramble as well.
     
     I look around the corners of my house where the cobwebs are gathering... the dust is collecting on the end tables.. right now it's dark out, but if it wasn't I'd gaze through my dirty windowpanes at my weedy flowerbeds & garden. We won't even talk about the sweet corn & lima beans that needs to be checked. After Friday I'll have to check my veggies for harvesting.... I figure the house & weeds will wait till some later date. Nobody will die cause of it. Although it does vex my soul. I can usually keep it nice & neat up to this point, then it all goes to pot for a while.
     
    Oh well, I'll be thankful for it all come winter. With the freezer & pantry shelves stuffed, and my furnace humming along nicely, all warm & cozy with fuel paid from my hard earned fruit money. I thank the Lord for the place to have a vegetable garden, and providing the fruit business for a much needed supplement.
     
    Back in June, a former teacher of mine who blogs here "Life in the Shoe"  was asking for advice what one can do in June so as to not get so overwhelmed in August. A friend commented you have to do the three D's.
    • Delegate
    • Delete
    • Die
    She didn't particularly recommend the third one. It made me laugh. 'Bout the middle of August, that third option doesn't look half bad!
     
    This too shall pass!
     

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  • About me, hmmm. Well lets begin with work, I do house-cleaning, I enjoy the satisfaction of seeing something messy & dirty & shining it up, I love the clients I work for, and the flexibity the job gives me. I live out in the country (love it) with my single brother, it works well! Someone to share the bills with :) & just someone to have around. Hobbies... writing, reading, scrap-booking, taking walks in the country, volley-ball. In the summer time, taking my float out on one of the many beautiful MN lakes & relaxing. In the wintertime, Love to be in my cozy house while the winds & snow howl around outside! And when I get a chance go out ice-skating or skiing. The list could go on under hobbies, sufficient to say I never get bored! Finally & most importantantly, I love My Lord & Savior Jesus Christ. I gave my heart to Him when I was 15, and He's been my faithful & constant Friend!

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